Rama's Grace

Swami Chinmayananda

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Monday, October 12, 2009, 12:13

I was all the while feeling that I should do pranayama (breath control) and meditation. But how was the question. As last, I referred to the scriptures to seek guidance from them. I started doing pranayama as well as meditation in the morning after puja. After some time, I developed an unbearable sensation in the head whenever I uttered Sri Rama Jaya Rama Jaya Jaya Rama. I was disappointed with the development: I loved God so much and had an intense desire for meditation.

At this juncture, one young man with whom I had become acquainted offered me a few books written by Pujya Gurudev and Swami Tapovanam. Since that time, I began to feel that I should write to Gurudev and seek his blessings.

Once fine morning on December 10, 1981, I wrote a letter to Gurudev to his 321st Gita Jnana Yajna at Trichy regarding my problem in uttering Rama Nama. I immediately received a letter from Gurudev advising me to undergo Chinmaya Mission's Lesson Course and then approach him again.

Accordingly, I commenced the study course. By the time I completed the course, the head-breaking sensation that I used to get while uttering Rama Nama had subsided, and I was very happy. I wrote to Gurudev about it, 'Promptly, I received a reply informing me that it was all Rama's grace and he was only a 'Nimitta matram' ( acting as an instrument of the Divine). Now I live peacefully centered in Him, who is in our own heart."

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This article has been written by an anonymous author for the 'Vedanta Vani', Chinmaya Mission.