Swamiji's reply was largely a story:
I have received your letter. Just forget all about it; such things happen now and then. Don't take anything to heart. You will regain your place in time. Now you listen to this story: .
"Once a blind swami was visiting another swami in his kutiya in
Uttarkashi. While they were talking, night slowly descended in the
valley, but both were unaware of it "By and by the guest got up to
leave, but before he parted, the host swami gave him a coconut
shell with a lighted candle in it "Naturally, the departing guest
protested, , What's the matter with you, Swamiji? You know I'm
blind. To me night and day, darkness and light are the same. So why
have you given me this lighted candle ? "No,no" explained the host
: "This light is not for you, Maharaj. It is for others - that they
may not crash into you" Satisfied, the sadhu left, carrying the
As the blind swami proceeded in the light of his prodding stick, cautiously moving forward, suddenly someone coming from the opposite direction bumped into him. 'Haven't you eyes, my man? Can't you see the candle light? How careless you are! cried the blind swami. The man merely said, "Your candle has gone out in the breeze. There is no light in your shell" And he walked away.
"Brahmachari, now you retire to a quiet place nearby and live for three weeks in study, japa, meditation, and one meal a day. Keep mauna. Learn again to smile within. The candle has no light now. It is only a shell that cannot help others.